Wednesday, May 25, 2005

I have something to say and it is this. So much goddammed stuff has changed in this school year. Soooooo much. Tonight I had a great night with Amber, Kenzie and Kate, moving Amber into her new wonderful house. It was so great. At dinner, we were talking about how much our lives have changed..... and wowie I couldn't get over it. I have to admit, I am such a hater towards change. It scares the shit out of me, but I have come to the conclusion change is not good or bad, it is alas just changed. Things happen, people differ, not good or bad, it just falls into place... now to end with a cliche song that just happened to be playing while I was pondering this year....

"Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got 'till it's gone. They paved paradise and put up a parking lot. "
- Counting Crows

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

So a couple of things.
1. sucked up my flute recital, was by far the worst there, even worse than the sixth graders
2. On the way to my flute recital, we were on cedar and there was a man mowing his lawn, on a rider, and his yard was done, and it was evident in the lines, but instead of stopping, he was going in circles.
3. There was a black womyn driving next to us, also on cedar, whose hair was like long and than the top layer of hair was an inch short and curled under. I never ever thought I would see that go past 1998, so congrats lady.

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Many many many many things in my head right now, accompinied by a tremendous stomach ache. A list is in order.
1. The Mars Volta was fucking amazing, so intense... I hoped Seamus liked it, he seemed tired and uncomfortable. Whatevs... It was amazing. I wish we could've seen other SES people there, ah well next time.
2. I have so much left to do tonight, such as finish 2 papers, a flute recital and clean my room. That is like nothing compared to what I usually have to do, but I feel like shit, so we'll see how it all works out.
3. Dan Kauppi is coming home this weekend, it will be good, yet weird, to have him home and not in the far off distant land that is India.
4. I have debate. Shit. Like seriously. And if anyone can find an article on the impact/effects of terrorism on people, that would be just peachy.
5. People change. I hate it. I was just reading my paper for comp, a while back about change. Well O-M-G. Too much changes, typically for the worst. Ahhh.
6. Like I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I have been on the verge of a breakdown for approx. 2 weeks and I just hope I can keep it all together. See number 5 as to the causes of this breakdown.
7. I can eat anything without wanting to throw it back up. Good thing for the summer swimsuit bod. Bad for attempting to feel healthy.
8. I found 4 half filled glasses of water in my house, all placed there by me. I am loosing my mind.
9. I wait in four-four time. I love the Weakerthans.
10. Just to make it a nice round number, I hope everyone had a good time at my house previous to prom, and that prom itself was a blast also.

aight

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

I am going to the mars volta tonight. Fuck. Don't get me wrong I am tres excited, but omg do have shit to do. So right now I am waiting for Seamus to come and I have readily accepted the fact that I will be up all night. Ahhh shit.

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Today all I have had to eat was, Toast this morning, Like four bites of my sandwhich at lunch, and a bluberry muffin and popsicle right now. I feel soooooooooo gross. But i'm excited to see my girls at bou crew tonight, so all is good. Right?

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Monday, May 02, 2005

Love of my life.

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I totally just applied for camp... and haven't done any hmwk. Whatevs.


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