Sunday, March 28, 2004

wow my dad is so cool... i really appreciate his sympathetic insight that i fail to recieve from my mom

Saturday, March 27, 2004

" why are you always so down on yourself in your online journal?" This namless persyn (katie downes) presented a very good question. Aside from popular belief i m not always pissy and self-downer as my blog portrays me as ... its just the only times i m pissy i write about... so i will start with writing about all, good, bad and indifferent

Start with last night... can you say shaving cream fight! it was so worth getting really dirty for, and half baked is a really funny movie and i love k8 and maureen and i love seamus's house and i love it how k8 "had to get a sweatshirt" and i love how i made a fool of my self, " It smells like smoke." and yeah it was good

thee end

Thursday, March 25, 2004

wow... so its 11:30.. i still have 7 bios to do, a note- based science test to study for, 40 math problems to do... so yeah... life is terrific

Monday, March 22, 2004

i feel nothing... i m completely drained of all emotions, too much is going around and i dont have anything left ahhhh i need a day to myself! too much going on and a.p. needs to eat it

Thursday, March 18, 2004

seriously i will post 354325098 times tonight just so someone reacts to what i m saying..... i m pathetic

why do i do it? I keep placing myself in a vulnerable position, in which the only outcome is getting hurt! and so then why do i do it? and i m so confused do i like him or dont i? and i really dont kno my feelings about god? and i think i m going to go to hell for being a bad persyn and for swearing. and i think that i m going to suck at debate camp because i cant get enough money or support to go. and i think that i will die cuz i like doign well at debate. and i think that i m not going to graduate because of my plummeting GPA and i think i will be thrown out of my house to have to live in the gutter and because of my low high school grades not get into college and never get a job able to buy a house or start a family. i also cant be a hooker because i m not pretty enough. my life has ended DAN WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU?


the end

Movies made in the 90s with almost famous stars in them, with predictable endings rule my world, you know what else does dan to the kauppi. thats right, he has a cool story, and to recieve the full coolness click on the super hot guy link in my blog because i m sure the uber cool story will be posted and if its not, i thought wrong about the coolness of mr. kauppi.

I m really tired, while filing seemingly boring extemp articles i just started to laugh... and DIDNT STOP FOR 15 MINUTES... tired, i think so. you kno what really pisses me off about extemp, so i really suck at it and am used to bottoming out in ranks, yet in speech class when i try to give a deece, relaxed speech i go extemp? wtf, i m really messed up

speaking of messed up things, my friend dfjoadja is having troubles and i dont give a rats arse... excuse me if i m harshing your realm but wow i really dont care about your problems anymore and i m really sick of helping you with your life and getting nothing in return! sick and tired of it.... wow i really hope dfjoadja figures out who they are because that would just add to the wetness of the already large amounts of haterade that are being POURED OVER MY HEAD!

if you think i m tense, you are underestimating yourselves... p.s. i m really sick of being dumb p.s.s. i m really sick of feeling sorry for myself and others p.s.s.s. what does the relevance of me placing more s's behing the p's make this any farther down on the priority list than the original ps... get back to me on this one


Monday, March 15, 2004

so that song thing worked for o... one day? ahhh was worth a shot, so magical moments was stellar and our skit was the best...

The real reason for this post was to declare my independence from the opposite sex and disconnect my thoughts from them! I HATE LIKING SOMEONE! and i officially can say i really dont like anyone... its been a real while since i could say that whole heartedly.... i havnt talked to dan in so long so if you are reading this! this is the update!

i love you all

Thursday, March 11, 2004

artist: linkin park
album: hybrid theory
song: in the end

It starts with
one thing/i dontknow why
it doesnt even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind/i designed this rhyme
to explain in due time
All i know
time is a valuable thing
watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
its so unreal
didn't look out below
watch the time go right out the window
trying to hold on /but didnt even know
wasted it all just to
watch it go
i kept everything inside and even though i tried/it all fell apart
what it meant to me will evetually/ be a memory/of a time when

I tried so hard
and got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
to lose it all
But in the end
it doesn't even matter

One thing/i don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme
To remind myself How
I tried so hard
in spite of the way you were mocking me
actin like i was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with/ me/I'm surprised
it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
you wouldn't even reconize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though i tried/it all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be a memory/of a time when i

Tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
It doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you
pushed as far as i can go
For all this
theres only one thing you should know
I put my trust in you
pushed as far as i can go
For all this
theres only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesn't even matter
i had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

album... places you have come to fear the most

artist: dashboard confessionals
title: The Good Fight

Consider the odds
consider the obvious.
The martyr is meaningless
the campaign has died.
In the planning stages
and the fallen faces
are the singular proof
that it was ever alive.

This purchased rebellion
has been outdated
denounced and rescinded
and left to die championless.
I begged you not to go.
I begged you I pleaded.
Claimed you as my only hope
and watched the floor
as you retreated.

Hope has sprung a perfect dive
a perfect day, a perfect lie.
A slowly crafted monologue
conceding your defeat.

Does it comfort you to know
you fought the good fight?
Basking in your victory,
hollow and alone
to boast your bitter
bragging rights
to anyone who'll listen.
While you're left with
nothing tangible to gain

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

my BMI (body mass index) according to the first 7 calculators that popped up on yahoo is... 21.9... normal haha i think not.....
so i have decided from now until next wednesday i will give you a song, along with the author and corrisponding album so you may listen along with my moods, i will not say anymore or any less than then that... ready, one more catch
i will post at approx 7:13 every evening... be there or be square

Sunday, March 07, 2004

I know that everybody wants you
it's not a temporary issue
just once i think i'd like to
get it on with you

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*breath*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *cough *cough *weep *weep

wow live blows